Cloudy days are just that. Cloudy. Dull. Boring. Thick. Blocking the sun. I need sun. I wish everyday could be filled with sun with no clouds to be found. BUT everyday is different. With Chronic Illness you have to realize that there will be days that the clouds are thick, and trying to see thru them feels impossible. Honestly, those days suck. Honesty at it’s finest. You’re welcome. 🙂
The past 3 days I have had severe fatigue. The type that when you use any part of your muscles you have used up your energy. I’m functioning at about 50%. I’m getting the bare necessities done. I’m struggling trying to see thru the clouds. Could be any number of things that is causing it – new meds, the weather, a flare. I just never know. My body is telling me something isn’t right. Somewhere. It’s like trying to find that needle in the haystack. The clouds are getting thicker and the needle is getting smaller.
Having my devotions today and reading in my Jesus Calling Book Christ showed me about looking thru the thick clouds – “Imagine gazing through a dirty window into a gorgeous, sun-drenched garden. If you focus on the dirt that’s on the glass, you’ll miss the exquisite beauty of the garden.” What, what!!! He so told me, didn’t He?! I don’t want to miss the beauty. But how do I see thru the clouds when they are so thick? When it is so hard to see anything?
First, let me say it’s taken me a while to get to this point. It doesn’t happen overnight, and I’m still human so I still have times that I tend to feel sorry for myself. However, I have learned that if I can get my mind off of what I’m going thru it definitely helps me. I know journaling/blogging has done a world of good for me. To write down honestly what I’m feeling/going thru helps me sort out things in my head. Listening to uplifting music also helps me. Doing for someone else, if I’m physically up to do so, also is another way.
Second, you can’t just do it once. It has to be a repetitive thing. To cling to Christ daily, to refocus your thoughts, and to seek Him with ALL your heart. Not just a portion. By seeking Him He will show you where to look thru the clouds, on those sucky days, to be able to see the exquisite beauty of the garden, even if it’s just a glimpse. Sometimes those glimpses is all we need to get thru the day. A glimpse a day keeps the suckyness away! LOL! 🙂
May this scripture help you today!!! #KeepOnDancin #ChronicIllness #Hecanrollthecloudsaway 🙂